Decisions

As I sit here, I contemplate suicide while listening to Vivaldi's Four Seasons. Today, my dad said - to my face - that I was not wlecome at his place anymore. Not only did he say this to me, he said it to my younger brother and sister. Basically, he has made the decision to sacrifice his relationship with all his children in an attempt to save the one with his fiancé. Lets look at this again. My DAD gave up his relationship....WITH HIS CHILDREN. Correct me if I'm wrong, but shouldn't one's relationship with one's children be perhaps the most important thing in your life? If that's true, someone slap my dad upside the head and tell him he's an idiot. So.....my reaction will be to pretend that he does not matter to me anymore. If he reads this great. If he doesn't, better. Seriuosly, who needs a father who can throw you away because of last minute plans made to see a rarely seen cousin. Not me. I can manage without him. It is my decision to attempt to carry on.